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May 20, 2013 7:13 pm

A big difference I’ve noticed about talking with advisors and other staff from CBU versus any of the other millions of counselors I called at one of the millions of other schools I applied to is that everyone I talk to is extremely nice instead of down right rude like this one chick I talked to from CSU Northridge.

Registering was also really nice and easy. I didn’t have to count down every second til it was my registration time and I switched my classes a whole bunch of times without worrying about whether or not they’d be stolen from me in a second. Yeah, these next three to four years are gonna be fun.

Unfortunately, the only pain in my butt is making sure all my classes transfer over. It looks like I’m gonna have to take a third English class. I am determined to get into a class this summer. Since I didn’t know they wouldn’t except my second English class I got stuck on two waiting lists. I’m gonna beg and plead my way for a spot. Everyone drops summer classes anyway so I am praying with all my might that these English professors would be kind enough and understanding enough to give me a permission number. If I had just known three weeks ago then I wouldn’t be having this problem but I didn’t so there’s nothing much I can do about it now. Just gonna have to fight and charm my way into a class. Praying really, really hard that this works out because I really want to apply for the spring nursing program because I really think I’ll get in. Giving it all to God. He’s never let me down before.

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May 20, 2013 3:24 am

I need to let go.

Sometimes the littlest things can worry me.

And, for some reason I always come across some obstacle that just seems to further me from accomplishing my goals.

This itty bitty obstacle is nothing that should consume my mind and distract me from my task at hand, which is finals.

God has made it clear to me and my family that he wants me at this school. Some minor obstacle with a minor class shouldn’t worry me. I have faith that God will work his magic on such a simple problem like that and the people at CBU will work with me to fix this little problem.

Within the course of two years I have faced far greater obstacles and was able to surpass all of them with the help of God. There is indeed, no obstacle too big for him. He has handled everything I’ve thrown at him. This little setback will be no different.

I have enormous faith in him. He has surprised me so much this year that this minor little detail should not cause me to doubt how amazing and powerful he is.

Other than that, I am almost but not quite ready for my finals. In two days I will be smiling like no other because it is all so surreal. Everyone was telling me that it’s nearly impossible to get out of crc in two years let alone finish your GE and nursing prerequisites in two years. I used to scoff at them and just say, “watch me, I’ll make it happen”. Truth is, it wasn’t me, it was all God. I wouldn’t have made it through without him by my side to comfort me when I was in despair, to give me strength when I was weak, and to reassure me of my purpose during the millions of times I wanted so badly to give up on everything and run away to a desolate island.

Every time I start feeling a little worried and try to take things into my own hands I just have to take a minute, breathe, pray, pray some more, and let it go and give it all to God. He’s got all of this.

🎶When I’m lost in the mystery, to you my future is a memory, cause you’re already there, you’re already there!🎶 -Casting Crowns “The Lord himself goes before you and is with you: he will never leave you, not forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” - Deuteronomy 31:8

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May 19, 2013 6:01 pm

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God has a set time for your opportunity. There is a set time for that problem to turn around, a set time for your healing, your promotion, your breakthrough. It may be tomorrow, or next week, or five years from now. But when you understand the time has already been set, it takes all the pressure off. You won’t live worried, wondering when this is ever going to happen. You’ll relax and enjoy your life knowing that the promise has already been scheduled and your answer is on the way!

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May 17, 2013 7:15 pm

In the end all the fights and bickering don’t matter.

Family is family and I’ll always love every member of my family.

It doesn’t matter how many times I’ve been annoyed with my cousin, it doesn’t matter how many times I’ve wanted to smack him upside the head or strangle him for the things he did that bothered me, it doesn’t matter how many times we’ve argued and yelled over stupid little things.

In the end he is still my cousin, I still care about him, I still want the absolute best for him, I still want him to be happy, I still want him to succeed in life, and I still want him in my life even if it’s not for a big part of my life.

Yes, I still think he has a lot of learning and growing to do. Yes, I don’t always know if his intentions are pure or if he’s just doing stuff so he looks good. Yes, I don’t like how he isn’t exactly the most grateful or respectful person. Yes, his lazy attitude still bothers me sometimes. But, it’s his life. It’s not right for me to judge him or anyone else for the way they’re living their life. It’s not right for me to criticize their decisions or make assumptions about their decisions. All I can do is watch and pray for them if I don’t agree with their ways.

And, yeah, I don’t necessarily like living with my cousin but I do love my cousin. He is a son of God and I am happy that he is trying to follow and walk with God. I have been wrong to criticize and judge and rant about him. Just like me, he’s still trying to grow and neither of us are perfect and we just happen to be similar in ways that make us clash. But, in the end I wouldn’t change anything about our living situation. Without knowing it he’s taught me how to control my minor temper, he’s made me realize that I still need to work on controlling my mouth and in every situation work to talk with only gentle words of love. He’s also taught me to never let anger reside in my heart, especially not for too long. Yeah, we’d fight but the very next day we’d both apologize and talk things out. Those were all things I was so afraid to do back in high school, and now I prefer confronting my problems rather than running away from them. He’s also taught me how to be more accepting of everyone just as they are. I never thought he’d grow up to be the way he is because truth be told I didn’t really know him until I lived with him and I do feel for him because he grew up an only child with parents that didn’t spend all that much time with him, and truth be told I’m proud of him for becoming a man after God’s own heart rather than turning to drugs, alcohol or partying. He really has grown a lot and so have I, but there is always room for improvement for both of us.

Honestly, I will actually miss him. We may have fought and he may have annoyed me a lot (mostly because of the messiness and before it felt like he was always competing or comparing himself with me) but at least we did get to know each other better, at least we kept each other company when we could, and at least we were able to confide in each other even if it was only once in a while. But, I will definitely not miss cleaning up after him or my brother. Yet, I do look at it as good preparation for when I have a husband and kids of my own.

In the end, everything does happen for a reason. I thank God for all these tests of patience. I wouldn’t say I passed with flying colors but that just goes to show I have a lot more learning and growing to do. One thing will never change about me though, I can never not forgive. I have never liked holding grudges because keeping those feelings of angst towards others just hurts me instead and keeps me feeling trapped and bitter. Plus, God has always forgiven me and never holds grudges for the sins I did to hurt him. The least I can do is forgive those that have hurt me and love them in spite of their imperfections.

So, yeah, in the end my family is my family. We don’t always have to get along, we don’t always have to like each other, but I will always love each and every one of them. After all, Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind or forgotten.

Weeeeeeee!

May 15, 2013 11:44 pm

All registered for my first semester at CBU! :DDDDD

Looking at sixteen units! That’s gonna be so weird, I’m so used to having eighteen. Oh well, I’ll find something to do with that spare time. I still have to call about my second English class. If it doesn’t transfer over I’m gonna have to drop my medical terminology class for it which is all good. It’s more important to finish up all my GE stuff over my minor because if (and hopefully I do) get into the nursing program in spring I can just drop my minor or I can take one class every semester along with my nursing classes and I’ll still finish it by the time I graduate.

Now just gotta finalize my financial aid and I’m all set.

Also, my brother is playing the theme song from “Up” my favorite movie of all time.

Yeah, I am a happy camper. I have never been this happy or relaxed during finals week. Having a school and God showing me this path that he wants me to follow, starting to get a glimpse of the plans he has for me has just taken off a huge load off my shoulders. I look back on these past two years and all the times I was stressed out of my mind and I realize that I never did have anything to worry about, God had a plan since the beginning. I know now that I have nothing to fear, no matter what life throws at me I know God is by my side and I will never be alone.